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Sebuah film tentang orang tua dan anak. Ayah, Ibu, Anak Sulung, Anak Tengah, dan Anak Bungsu. Anak Sulung yang sealu diminta Ayah untuk menjadi contoh dan menjaga adik adiknya dari segala macam bahaya dan kesedihan. Anak Tengah yang karena tengah semua serba tengah, seperti tidak ada yang dispecialkan. Dan Anak Sulung yang selalu diperhatikan apapun. Semua ini seolah olah yang nampak oleh kita para penonton. Ibu yang selalu mengikuti arus Ayah. Hal ini terjadi begitu lama bertahun tahun, dan ternyata ini  menjadikan bom waktu untuk keluarga ini sendiri. Dan di klimaks film ini, bom waktu itu meledak. Pelajaran yang bisa saya ambil dari film ini, hilangkan stigma anak sulung, anak tengah,dan anak bungsu. Mereka sejatinya sama harus saling menjaga dan diperhatikan, sama. Sama? ya kita manusia, sama itu adalah kata, bagi manusia adalah berusaha sama. Pengalaman adalah pelajaran bagi kita, pengalaman adalah referensi bagi kita. Kita wajib berusaha terus belajar dari pengalaman, bai...

I find peace when I am praying right now. I can feel it because all have happened. I trust this is Allah`s plan for me. And I am happy because of this, I am truly happy until I cry, I don't know. I always remember Dwihanda said, "Allah does not need our tahajud but we must pray tahajud because we need Allah". This makes me powerful to wake up in the morning. And masya allah I am very grateful because of this. In the past, I always pray to make my prayers more fervently. And Allah makes it come true. Alhamdulillah. Now when I am praying, I feel more connected to Allah. I feel I am talking to Allah and worshiping Allah. This is my spiritual journal, I hope you have owned your spiritual journal too. :)

Untuk Opiniku 1 ini, aku mau bahas tentang Mengenal Diri Sendiri. Aku memilih topik ini karena untuk mengenal hal hal di bumi ini menurutku kita harus memulai dengan mengenal diri sendiri. Setelah itu baru kita mulai dengan hal hal sekitar. Oke kita mulai,,, I don`t you, but I know me. Klise ya, hehe. Tapi aku pun belum paham tentang diriku sendiri sepenuhnya karena menurutku aku belum banyak mengadakan perbincangan dengan diriku. Kita perlu "Ngobrol dengan diri sendiri" untuk paham. Cara untuk ngobrolnya gampang, kamu tinggal pilih medianya seperti diary, blog, cermin, atau ngobrol sendiri. Terus untuk mengawali kamu tanya "apa yang kamu rasakan? gimana harimu? kamu suka ngelakuin ini?" lalu biarkan dirimu sendiri juga yang menjawabnya. Jadi seolah ada dua karakter dalam diri, kamu sebagai wartawan dan kamu sebagai narasumber. Lebih bagus kalau ini tertulis, karena meninggalkan jejak. Jadi bisa kamu baca berulang apa yang kamu rasakan dan pikirkan. Perulangan ini ...

After I have done my vale test part 1, okay this time to surrender to Allah. Yes, the questions of this test are hard, need more logic to find the solution. I agree with the statement of Aprin "the scale of hardness this exam is 8.5 / 10". :) And based on Aprin's experience that vale will give information about part 2 of this test soon at night. Ya Allah all has happened because of You. I surrender to You Allah again with the result of this test. And still, I hope I can continue this test to part 2 (I think the test is the user's interview). To all of you, pray for my test and I can continue to part 2 and 3, and finally, I can work in Vale as Junior Mine Engineer in Bahodopi Site of Vale. Aamiin

Alhamdulillah thank you Allah, it is happened because of you. I got an email from Experd Consultant that Vale`s partner hires people in a job. My schedule test will be held on Sunday 27 July 2020. Yes, I am so excited, I can fight again to prove my efforts to find my dream job is Mine Engineer. Big thanks for you Allah, Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah. In this vacancy encourage female, and my friend Ias is called too. Bismillah Yas, Goodluck for you! After I have read this email, I realize that the site of mine in Bahadopi. Bahadopi is located in Morowali, Central Sulawesi. Ya, my friend Endy had worked in Morowali as an engineer in nickel mining. Oh ya, by the way, Vale is a nickel mining company, last night I told you that I wanna so bad to try the test in nickel company. And a day after that I get that test, Ya Allah thank you again! It is a true "words are prayers". So speak well because it can be your prayer. Insya Allah. Wish me luck all. Bismillahirrahamn...

This is not about me but you. Last night you chated to tell or ask me about "are you called by vale to attend the test?". But you opened that chat with "how are you?". I am triggered by questin how you are, so I answered enthusiastically with my feeling right now. But suddenly you asked me about vale, yes the recruitment of vale. And you told me that you were called by Vale to attend the technical test. Yes, I was happy for there was a mining company begin testing again and happy for your test. In truth, I have registered that vacancy but I feel I was not qualified that vacancy, I don't know, so I was not called. But I believe that another company will call me to join the test, someday.

22 July 2020 To my self, Zukhrufa Awalia Rahma Here I wanna give you some arguments about your self. I know you have been worry about life, especially the job. Yes I  know you have been struggling, you have searched opportunities through online and offline ya you have gone to offices directly and have signed your resume. You have been fucking great, you have tried so hard as I know. And I wanna whisper you, "you gonna get this job, your dream mine job!!" But now, you must learn something that you must learn. For what? For your better life.  Good, you have been trying to be a teacher, teaching children that you don't imagine before. Have you realized? You have been learning about forcing and giving your emotions to teach them. It is fucking great!! You had been whatever with children before. And now you have been learning it.  And soon you will be an entrepreneur with selling rice bowl. Bismillah you will learn something new again that you have not imagined before. ...